All I Do I Do For You

The sound of silence at last.  Everyone went to their room but me.  Great time to post!

Arrived back in Va. tonight.  In some ways this is feeling more like home than my own home.  After all it's the people that make a house a home not the house.  I was greeted with lots of hugs and kisses from the oldest to the youngest .  It was so wonderful to feel all their love.  What is this?  Am I in hiding or running or seeking? 

  A little of each I suspect.  The pain of leaving a love that God said to to release and  the adventure of following my jealous God into my destiny.  I find myself on a see saw-one moment desiring to be sold out for Him and  another yet still wanting to run back into the man I fell in love with arms.  With this said I am determined to live life by the spirit not my emotions. Today is the first day in about 10 or more that I actually did not cry.  I was feeling so responsible for the pain that I caused my friend but I am letting go of that.  This is where the healing starts where light meets the dark...