A Day Of Firsts

Yes, I actually exercised for four days in a row.  Yes, I actually took a singing lesson from grand niece, Destiny   and I am a Soprano she said!  Destined to sing?  Well that will take alot more convincing but I am going for it! 

Yes Sir

Today was good!  My only goal was to follow God one step one decision at a time.  Let me explain-Ren is one years old and she says NO often.  The family is teaching her not to say NO and  replace it with YES SIR or YES MAM.  I picked up on this and realized that was what I needed to do with God whether I felt like it or not.

My day has been better than most recently thanks to Serenity.  I've been taking and given so much by this family.  Today I started giving.  These words from a song have been chanting all day in my mind, "I'll follow you to the broken."   I suspect it is part of my destiny

Oh He Loves Me Sooo

So consumed and He just keeps on lovin me through these amazing kids, ministering angels, and my loving friends.  No judgement, no expectations or agendas here!   So free to just be.  In the midst of the chaos there is a peace.  Even in this time of not knowing a warm smile creeps across my face.  Yes, the air seems cleaner and my head feels lighter.  I sense something wonderful is about to happen.  Grace like rain is falling on my destiny.    

Back On Track

Was hoping to blog last night but my Va. family kept going playing Apple to Apple.  We laughed hardly past midnight.  The pull back to Dave is still strong.  Resisting contact in spite of my hearts emotions.  Anyway it's a new day in spite of the storms.  Hurricane Irene hit today!  Being all together is such a strong force that nothing seems to effect us as a whole.  Games and movies the agenda for the day.  Em made an amazing white chili and Des made her scrumptious blueberry scones.  I love this family!!!!!!It is definitely part of what I needed.  I am called to be here for now anyway.  I woke up this morning with these words the running is over.  I have been running since the day that my husband Denny died.  O'h God not to make plans not to think about how I will fill up every day and night is soooo refreshing.  I just am!!!!  I have not even washed my face for two days or put my lenses in.  We watched the movie Something Borrowed and of course I cried during the love scenes. Rosie, a very special 12 year old annointed by God,  ministered to me after the movie.  I actually video taped what she said.  Basically if I heed the voice of God He will do all that He has promised.  She prayed healing over me for the pain from Denny and Dave.  God is going to heal you-just move on she said.  Thank you God for sending Rosie into my life and loving me through her today.  Got to go as my destiny awaits me!

All I Do I Do For You

The sound of silence at last.  Everyone went to their room but me.  Great time to post!

Arrived back in Va. tonight.  In some ways this is feeling more like home than my own home.  After all it's the people that make a house a home not the house.  I was greeted with lots of hugs and kisses from the oldest to the youngest .  It was so wonderful to feel all their love.  What is this?  Am I in hiding or running or seeking? 

  A little of each I suspect.  The pain of leaving a love that God said to to release and  the adventure of following my jealous God into my destiny.  I find myself on a see saw-one moment desiring to be sold out for Him and  another yet still wanting to run back into the man I fell in love with arms.  With this said I am determined to live life by the spirit not my emotions. Today is the first day in about 10 or more that I actually did not cry.  I was feeling so responsible for the pain that I caused my friend but I am letting go of that.  This is where the healing starts where light meets the dark... 

The old into the new, the past into the future, the dark into the light

and the next volume begins!

Tomorrow Bina and Aunt Kelilah head south to Gainesville, VA.

And the spirit of God leads them as they travel to their destiny